The anticipation for Autumn is over. It appears Fall is finally here. I even had to use the heater Saturday afternoon to get the chill out! That means it got below sixty-eight degrees Fahrenheit. The heavy ripple afghan will be put on the bed after I confiscate it from Kali. And soon I will once again panic that I don't own a winter coat that fits me on those few rare days I need one.
I love how now the outdoors has slowed down and grown darker, and I have to turn the lamps on indoors during the middle of the day — and how anytime seems like a good time to pick up the needles or hook. Lately it's been more knitting than crocheting — and I'm wondering if that's a subconscious seasonal thing. And I don't mean the holiday season.
Nearly a decade ago, the man I loved said "I love you" to me for the last time. I went into a depression that can literally make someone die from a broken heart. The kind of despair that found me vacuuming the living room carpet one moment, then curled up on the kitchen floor in tears the next. The kind of heartache that made me stop eating for over four months, in what a friend described as a "slow suicide."
What helped heal my mind was knitting — which I started in November of that year. I even knitted up an appetite (my weight had dwindled to double-digits) from fun hours of knit, purl, knit, purl. As melodramatic as it might sound, knitting may have saved my life. And almost like clockwork, I find myself knitting more at this time of year.
Which is why I keep my cozy crafty corner even more comfortable nowadays. I love sitting there to quiet my mind while knitting or crocheting (or sewing or writing) and watching the wind blow through the tree branches and seeing the rain sparkle on the windowsill. I invite you to pull up a chair as I will begin to show you more projects that come to life from this little spot.
Kathryn Vercillo famed for her Crochet Concupiscence blog has written a book titled Crochet Saved My Life. I haven't bought it to read yet, but I'm so happy to see other crocheters opening up and sharing their stories.
I have also blogged about the mental health benefits of knitting and crocheting through my panic attacks.
If you're having suicidal thoughts and need someone to talk to, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: